Yesterday was the first time I’d written something in over two weeks — possibly the longest break from writing I’ve taken in years.
It took two hours to write 500 words. But I wrote them.
It’s going to take a long time to return to where I was — writing a lot, and often. And loving it.
I started this blog because of my love for writing and my hope that I could share what I was learning with other aspiring writers such as myself. Inspiring creators and offering hope to the down and discouraged has become a passion I never expected to discover from an 11-year-old blog.
Right now, though I know that passion and excitement will return in time, it’s buried deep beneath a barely manageable amount of pain and mistrust and uncertainty.
Putting myself out there right now, even through words, is extremely difficult and draining. I deeply value myself and my work and what I have to offer all of you. But certain recent events have forced me to question what writing really means to me. How it’s meant to fit into my life moving forward. Where I want to take it. How I want to use it.
To continue on pretending I have the confidence and stamina to offer help and advice to writers would be dishonest, if behind the screen I didn’t myself believe my words held any meaning.
I care about all of you and want to do whatever I can to help you succeed.
But not right now.
I will return — in a week? A month? A year? I don’t know.
I’ve lost my spark.
And I won’t return until I’ve found it again.
Take care of yourselves. Keep writing. Don’t give up.
But if you need to take a break … take a break. I doubt you’ll regret it.
Meg is the creator of Novelty Revisions, dedicated to helping writers put their ideas into words. She is an editor and writer, and a 12-time NaNoWriMo winner. Follow Meg on Twitter for tweets about writing, food, and Star Wars.