So it just happened to me. A moment I’m not sure I’ve experienced in the past two and a half years.
I set everything up to start writing a new post, as I do every day. Business as usual.
Then I stopped. Sat there for a second. And then I thought …
What if I just didn’t?
What if I just got up and did something else? And I don’t mean for a few minutes or an hour. I mean forever. What if I just logged out of my account and never blogged again?
Obviously I put that thought right where all the naughty thoughts go and started writing this post anyway, because I’m not a giver-upper and someone out there might actually enjoy coming here every day to pollute their brain with my thoughts. Why deprive them of the opportunity?
It’s thoughts like these that inspire us, that send us riding on an unexpected wave of motivation. Unexpected doubts and fears make us question why we do what we do, which sends us into existential crisis mode for a hot second, but then something cool happens.
We remember why.
That’s what just happened to me.
To be completely honest, I am fed up with this week. Sometimes you work really hard on something, and that one person that feels the need to say you did a terrible job not only bruises your confidence, but punches that bruise really hard afterward, and it just knocks you down for a second. I’m back up, I’m fine, but about 12 hours later my rage dissolved into doubt and thus here we are.
Falling into a routine is both healthy and hazardous. I write a blog post every day, and have for over two years straight. It has become a habit, which is great for my analytics but terrible for my brain. Sometimes I forget why I even do this every day. And in moments of total doubt, those questions you’ve unintentionally ignored just pop up.
This makes us stronger, though; better; more likely to succeed, actually. Because we’re not just going through the motions not knowing why we’re doing it. We’re reminded why we’re choosing to do it, why it matters to us, who it’s serving, and how much they care.
If we never had moments like these, we really would forget why we started doing it in the first place. I started blogging because I wanted to share my perspective on writing with other writers. Now that helps and excites some people, and that makes it worth the grind.
You will have moments when you’ll wonder if quitting is really as easy, as effortless, as it seems. I suppose it could be. But don’t go through with it without first taking a moment to remember what you do this for. If it’s a good enough reason, you’ll stick with it. It won’t always be easy or fun, but you’ll make it.
We all will.
I’m not going anywhere, don’t worry. I just had a moment. The moment has passed.
Meg is the creator of Novelty Revisions, dedicated to helping writers put their ideas into words. She is a freelance writer and a nine-time NaNoWriMo winner with work published in Teen Ink, Success Story, Lifehack and USA TODAY College. Follow Meg on Twitter for tweets about writing, food and nerdy things.